Who told you you are not perfect? Who gave you the image you see in the mirror? First, accept, however you can, that you are made of the essence of God. Before any layers of worldliness are added, before anything at all is added, you are perfection. Start from there.
Now, seeing that you are of the very same being-ness as God, listen to whatever voice in the world, either your own inner voice or an outer one, that says you are this, or you are that, and hear how it cannot touch you. See that the individual 'you' that has taken on all these identities is not you, but a fiction you've accepted. Seeing the fabricated, worldly version of you, your true self will emerge without any effort.
One in an infinitely open field will eventually feel trapped, although there are no gates or borders or boundaries. This one will build gates, buildings, and all matter of creations, to distract from the vast field. In time, this one will forget who built the creation, feel there must be something more to existence, and seek the freedom of the open field he retreated from in the beginning.
All things become a trap for the one who sees and is not seen.
Trying to surrender is merely another form of not surrendering. Realizing you cannot surrender, nor give up on surrendering, spontaneous meditation, stillness, silence occurs. Surrender has happened without you.